Waiting For My Greater While I Become and Overcomer

I am so glad that I had a weekend full of single mom love.  I always come away from any Arise Ministries event having grown in some way.  As you know from my previous post I have fully committed my heart and my relationship status to my heavenly fiancé until He is ready to hand it over to His earthly counterpart here on earth.  I still have so much peace about the place I am in now.  Friday night Ms. Alice Richardson gave the most AMAZING sermon (really it was, I mean the woman PREACHED it!) about waiting for God’s greater for our lives and not settling for anything less. It was such a great confirmation and reinforcement of what God has been teaching me!

 

 Then the beautiful Ms. Pam Kanaly spoke about making sure that we allow God to fortify us and give us peace and joy in our singleness.  We are OVERCOMERS!  I sometimes forget to allow Jesus to be my champion and start to feel defeated because I feel like I am losing the battle! The truth of it is it is not my battle to fight and, in fact, My Lord has already won it! I had been very anxious, worried and upset about my son’s father coming back into the picture over the last couple of weeks.  It had been almost a year since he had seen him and now he decided he was going to cooperate and start scheduling visitations again.  I spent a lot of time crying and dwelling upon it in such unhealthy ways! I was taking back a burden that I had already given to God! I was allowing Satan to have ALL KINDS of access to my thoughts.  After listening to Pam’s lessons something clicked! She reminded us not to allow those negative thoughts in but instead to focus on the good and the blessings! Although she was referring mostly to the holidays, it was just what I needed! On the way home that night I started praying the word of God over the situation and my thoughts. I covered myself with the Armor of Salvation and rebuked Satan and all of his lies. I felt an instant peace and have not felt that fear again since.

³ For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. ⁴ The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. ⁵ We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. ⁶ And we will be ready to punish every act of disobedience, once your obedience is complete.

                                                                                2 Corinthians 10:4-6

If you do not pray the Word over yourself and your family, I would HIGHLY recommend you try it. It makes a world of difference. The bible says, “For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.” Hebrews 4:12. 

The other break-through I had this weekend was that I realized that I have not truly forgiven my ex-husband. I have forgiven myself, I have not allowed him to hurt me further, but I have not truly forgiven him. I thought I had, but God has convicted me and I now realize that I have not.  This is my next journey, and I think it may just be the hardest one yet…even harder than finding my way back to purity. Please keep me in your prayers as God leads me through this time of uprooting and healing.